Lies I Never Said

I’m supposed to miss someone I have had an encounter with but to some extent I feel like I miss you. I was never given the chance even to lay my eyes leave alone to touch my gene. Maybe if I got a chance, even a glance, I guess maybe half of my problems will recede from my mind. I wanted you so much. For the fantasies that took a place in my mind were vast. I’m not the father of the year and want no reward if I ever be. All I want is to be a father to my daughter.
Me and your mum might have so many differences but that did not mean I did not love her. She was the only lady that ever understood me, and I wasn’t ready to loose that. The altercation was too much for the both of us. So I have been named a deadbeat father but I was forced deadbeat. I was willing to pay every coin that was expected of me. Your mum found it better my cash wasn’t worth to raise her daughter. Yes I loved a feminist. It was her boldness that attracted me to her. Some of us men want to have ladies that go for what they want. It’s been two years since she vanished from my life. Yeah, I was a reckless man, but doesn’t mean I couldn’t take care of my family. I have been trying to trace both of you ever since.
I don’t know what information she may have planted in you about me. I don’t what kind of image you have of me. All I want is to raise my own daughter with the love I have for her. Probably by now you’ve asked your mum where your dad is but I wonder what she has told you or for how long she can keep answering the same question with the same answer. Well, I met your mum at a tender age. I wont lie and say it was love at first sight cause it took me time to realise I loved her. College years have so many things happening in between and your mum was one of them. I have never regretted meeting her to this day. Even after she ran away I still don’t regret it at all. We had our differences but that didn’t mean I hated her or I never wanted her in my life. She is the only lady who has known me through thick and thin.
“If she stays with you on your hard times, wife her”.
I have always lived with that rule. Well your dad is one hopeless romantic guy if she never told you this and he believes in love.
My daughter, your dad is a guy who tries to trace you ever since he knew about your existence. He has a small job that sustains his daily life. To cut it short, if I have to do anything to make ends meet just to have you in my life I would so. Not wanting you and your mother in my life is a lie I will never tell.

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